It has been exactly a month since Ava’s accident. We have heard numerous stories from people of truly miraculous recoveries. Stories of people falling from silos, being crushed under a silage truck, having body parts sewn back on. These stories nearly always begin with “Oh, that’s nothing.” To be truthful, as we travel today to Cincinnati and tomorrow and the next day to St . Louis, I am praying that the specialists will begin to detail their treatment plans with that same line.
When I see Ava go swimming or crawl through a tunnel, her injury doesn’t seem like a big deal. When I think of her as a mom someday, trying to change the diaper on a baby as wiggly as Violet, it seems like a really big deal. When I hear her giggle, it’s just fine and it’s really just an arm. When I think of how mean kids can be to each other, it’s her entire arm and kids will judge her for it. It looks so safe and secure all wrapped up as she plays, but it’s so limp and now often cold when I massage it throughout the day. I go back and forth.
How many people are there in the world that can fix this? Well, it appears like quite a few as you can google lots of brachial plexus centers. Although, it seems like most of them would be more accurately labelled ‘pain management centers’. (We choose not to use the word ‘pain’ around Ava and ask you not to as well.). In any case, if having nerves avulsed could be treated to restore at least some function in her shoulder and elbow, I want to know why the Traumatic Brcahial Plexus Injury group on Facebook has constant conversations about the great freeing feeling members experience when they finally get their dead arm amputated. For real. Or why there are over 1,000 members of the Brachial Plexus group, and the only full-length photos I see always have their shoulders immobilized. Even the teenagers.
However, the ladies that answer the phones in Cincinnati, St. Louis, and Rochester Mayo all sound so optimistic and encouraging. We haven’t given up hope. We think it may be God’s will for Ava to somehow someday restore some function.
I know that I wil look back at this time in our lives in the years to come and always see it as pivotal for our family. Please keep praying for healing from our Master Physician. Here’s a few photos to show some of the love that surrounds Ava.